Four of Wands
The 4 is stable. I always think of stability when any card with the 4 comes up. I am reminded to think of a square. I think of yoga poses. The Tree Pose. I also think of a meditative pose when I think of the 4. Upright, and noble. Then, I read the suit. The Wands is a the fiery suit. What is a “stable” form of passion? Joy. Joy and celebrations. There is a hopeful and positive energy to the Four of Wands specifically because from the square, from the the solidity, a giddy energy emerges. The card itself, features two people, with their arms raised above them, outside of a walled city/castle-like structure. They have all that they need and have no fear about venturing out of their comfort zone. They are free to explore. They are free to celebrate, and hope.
This feels exactly where I am. I have been celebrating. I have been joyous.
On Friday, something clicked and changed. I had my weekly Zoom meditation with the folks in SB, then an hour later, I had a catch-up call with former colleagues, who were looking to find a person in their team. It was really nice to hear them speak so kindly of me and their excitement with the possibility of working together again. It made me remember the hellish vibes I had to walk through before I came out of the other side, feeling like I did my best and that contrary to my own deeply ingrained beliefs—that I can work with a corporate team and come out not hating myself or the job. I can come out of it resenting some characters and elements, but it was not all bad.
This weekend was the most restful and restorative. I allowed myself to feel good about the work I’ve done and the impressions I’ve left in people. I got to do things I love, without fear. I am feeling goosebumps right now. Goosebumps are part of my tool kit. I get them when I feel an alignment. I think they call it clairsentience.